I love creations!

I have enjoyed the last few days of cooking and eating. I really ate very good and still did not gain. The secret is the word enjoy. Once you are satisfied you don't think about food constantly. I was able to eliminate snacks except when it really hits; then I would eat a yogurt that I made myself from Snowville creamery skim milk. It is amazing and very creamy on its own but even better when I strain it. I do that in a tea strainer over a very nice mug and I put it in the fridge. I eat it out of the strainer then add a little honey to the whey and drink it. Very refreshing!
Yesterday, I almost went back to my old habits, blaming myself and overwhelming it with all what I should do but did not do. Well, after my trainer session, the treadmill was busy and I decided to run on my Treadmill at home. Except that I decided to eat before: Haricots blancs au pesto de noix et roquette as well as ratatouille. Despite the fat in the first plate and high calories, I was not satisfied. The truth is the dish was good except that I kept thinking about my running that I have yet to do and was afraid not to do. It took the focus out of the meal. I remained sad and surrounded by books that tell me what to do: cooked food is bad for you? .. I picked that book from the library. I was and I am still interested in raw foodism and always amazed by their creation but this was not the time to confuse myself. So far I have been doing pretty good in nutrition and exercise, stress free. An Arnold bread filled with the best mushroom on the shelf, frisee, feta and sundried tomatoes for breakfast? an herb omelet or an omelet with feta, spinach and onions: yummee, really yummee. No need to stress myself otherwise. When I stopped and thought about what's happening, I got it. It was the blame game followed by frustration. I put away the book and I will return it as soon as possible.
Today I watched Chef Academy for the first time. I thought it was a nice program; would be nicer if they cut out all the reality showism. Piperade d'aubergines with mascarpone, blue cheese - pea with mint soup- potatoes au gratin. Sounds delicious. I can modify it to fit my low fat diet
My breakfast was huge today : 500 calories
French bread: 2.8 oz, Boca burger, a pat of butter and 1oz of fig jam ( I have discovered the butter after years of deprivation
Drunch: 4oz poppy seed crusted Tuna on salad and 1 tangerine + dressing made up of balsamic vinegar, tangerine juice, parsley and very little olive oil as well as arnold bread with each half covered by leftover Ratatouille sprinkled with skim Mozzarella (1oz total) to simulate a pizza
The treat : a raw cake made with walnuts and figs soaked ovenight and pulsed  for crust, filled with kiwi and raspberries. This was covered by another layer of crust and a yummee icing : avocado with carob powder, honey and cacao nibs (only 150 calories) for 1/8 th of the pie
Total intake 1300, Run 30 min, great energy, great mood